CANT THINK OF A FUCKING TITLE BUT I BET THE REST OF THE STATE COULD.

how do you know when things have gotten pretty bad? no...not even that...like...near death terrible?

when you find yourself rocking back and forth in the corner of a room crying to taylor swift songs.

what have i been doing all day?

that.

what do i need to be doing?

homework.

why do i need to be doing that?

because daddy gonna take away my phone and the internet for a month.

and why is that?

ima be catchin some yellow.

ALL THEM PRETTY PEOPLE SMOKE.

I would kill to look like her.

Freja:

and i kinda like. want that jacket.

MON FRANCAIS EST MAUVAIS

Je ne sais pas ou je peux trouver les accents: graves, aigus, circonflexes, et cedilles ici....eh, j'abandonne.

OKAY. My Immaterial Wishlist for Noel et le Nouvel An!

• intelligence
• some sort of useful skill. money making skill baha. and please god. not flexibility nor strength for pole dancing. they do not count.
• joliesse!
• je souhaite que quelqu'un en particulier viendrait a Melbourne.
• le courage (guts) voir ladite personne. 
• la bonne sante
• je veux ameliorer mon francais
• j'ai besoin d'un ATAR de 95 ou plus.
• Peut-etre que je peux grandir un autre deux centimetres plus grands? je n'ai pas grandi depuis deux ans, malheureusement :(

Ce post de blog n'a pas ete cense etre en francais. oops. En outre, la plupart de ce post est incorrecte non plus.

WHY I HATE CHRISTMAS

So I haven't always hated Christmas; in fact, it was my favourite time of year. However, since probably 2009, it's become an event full of frustration and tears (of sadness) and hate for me.

I'm not quite sure where to begin with this. Okay maybe, I'll start with the fact that I'm asian, and since more asian relatives have landed that asses onto this island, christmas spirit and tradition have just become blah.
food sucks, music sucks, people suck, gift giving sucks, atmosphere sucks. there was nothing christmas-y at all about last year's christmas. and the one before that. i've absolutely hated both of them. they're just like "okay let's throw in some ham and cook any white person's meal we can. there you go. here's your christmas."

Now what prompted me to write this blog post was something that happened about 20 minutes ago. So i've been feeling kind of guilty lately since my sister pointed out that i never really do much for her birthday or christmas and she always puts in effort and time to make me something. well, im sorry that i'm not exactly creative. and usually, the things i make end up in the trash anyway. so let's face it, i'm helping to save the environment. sort of.
I don't know if i've ever been this broke around Christmas before. I guess I've just never had such a need for money whilst simultaneously possessing next to nothing. So this year, my sister and I decided to give each other a christmas wishlist and both of us are to pick one or more items off that list to get for each other. So the thing I wanted was around $40 which, in comparison to the other $98 option, is pretty affordable. Then I picked some stuff she's been wanting for ages off of her list and decided that I would actually be nice this year and wrote up a list of other stuff I would throw in as well to surprise her and also rid me of the "worst sister of the year" award that my family has given me. Being the broke ass bitch I am, I added the stuff up and it pretty much uses up all the money I made selling my school books (money which is also needed to buy my next year's books) and i was all cool with that and was in fact pretty excited about going out to get those things for her and perhaps even making her happy on christmas this year.
BUT. she goes off and asks mum about when she can get driven to chaddy to buy some shit and one thing led to another and soon mum comes home and she asks me why I'm using my sister to buy expensive shit for me. then she and my sister go off about how what i'm getting her better be worth the same amount and my mum's like "i'm gonna make sure that you two have the same budget" blah blah blah. what. the. fuck. like since when was christmas all about comparing the price of presents.
so what's really aggravating me is that now, she's (and my mother) expecting me to buy fuck loads for her and make sure it adds up to what she's going to pay. UM. REALLY? I was going to fucking get you all that shit anyway and now i'm considering otherwise you fucking brat.

PLASTIC SURGERY

what is everyone's deal about being so against it? no need for the hate.
honestly i think it's amazing how someone can become a different person -not just physically, but also personality-wise- just by going under the knife.
i mean, if it makes someone feel better and more confident about themselves, then why the fuck not?
im gonna guess that the majority of anti-plastic surgery people are:
- too poor to afford it
- have nothing wrong with the way they look
- want to keep the ugly, ugly, so as to make themselves feel better

have i considered it for when im old enough? yeah.
will i go through with it? if hairdressing makes me enough moolah $$$
why would i go through with it? because if no one likes me now and everyone thinks im freakin hideous then it wouldn't hurt right? couldnt possibly get any worse.

NATURAL BEAUTY IS HIDEOUS

those who are fucked up bs that natural beauty is better than fake beauty. like. are you fucking blind? maybe i'm just speaking for myself here which, most of the time i am, but there is no fucking way that that is true.
you know why?

because ugly people never get anywhere in life and no one ever loves them or cares about them or is ever genuinely nice to them. and it's worse if you're brain doesnt function as well as others'. yay for a 50% in methods and a 45% in englang and no sciences. so asian.
pretty people get everything. everything. so yah. this is why i hate pretty people. especially pretty and smart people. i fucking envy you people. what the fuck was your mother eating while pregnant with you. i wanna know!

so IMO there are certain types of fake bitches that i think look pretty good. the only things i really cant stand are horrible fake tans and bleached hair. but take someone who spends hours everyday and $$$ every year making sure they look like Barbie and then compare them to some dipshit who spends less than 1% of their day working on their appearance in order to show off their so-called "natural beauty" that everyone apparently so dearly loves.

it becomes a little game show called "Beauty VS Beasts" where i am obviously in the latter category and always always always, the Beauties will always win.

you don't hear males being all like "daaayyyuumm check out her frizzy greasy hair and her bulbous nose and her double chin and non-existent eyes! i'd tap that."

and when it comes to work. no one is going to want to hire you to sell their products if you're constantly looking like some pubescent jelly-thighed gorilla.

Plans

I can't figure out whether having a plan is a good thing or not. It either works out, or creates false hope.
day plan
study plan?
life plan

day plans only sometimes work out. of you're lucky.
study plans...hahahahahano.
life plans are probably one of the main causes of depression and emos.

well. my life plan is crazy..=failure=self harm=suicide=death.
so basically. my life plan=death.

so it's like. by:
21 - moved out
25 - married
27 - better be freakin successful at something
30- kids
35 - 2 kids
40 - better be a fucking rich person
55 - retired

more probable situation:
25 - kicked out of the house
26 - homeless = prostitution
30 - unwanted and jobless
35 - steal a husky
40 - steal a baby
41 - cardboard box house destroyed by storm
42 - arrested
43 - jail
43.1 - raped and slaughtered in prison

FAT VS. SKINNY

pros of being fat:
- eligible for sumo wrestling

cons of being fat:
- you get picked on
- health risks
- you take up two seats instead of one on the tram. or anywhere else.
- special airplane seat
- cant fit in certain themepark rides
- the fat kid gets blamed for everything
- cant eat food or drink anything but water without others grimacing at you
- people dont find you attractive. sadly.
- people dont want to see you exercise *wobble*. but simultaneously wish you would.
- not acceptable for u to be out on halloween.
- you get stuck going down slides

pros of being skinny:
- if you are fortunate to have a face that dont look like mine you have a chance at being a model.
- you can fit into kids clothing

cons of being skinny:
- people assume you either chuck up everything or dont eat at all
- you look somewhat younger
- cant give blood? o.O
- cant sumo wrestle
- clothes look horrible on you. unless you have the face of a goddess to make up for it.
- people dont shut the fuck up about it

okay i give up on listing. basically, it sucks to be either.
what i wanted to complain about was how it's NOT okay to comment on someone's weight. and people are usually like "yeah i know". But for some reason people think it's okay to be like "oh my god you're so skinny" but yet it's rude to go up to someone's face and be like "bitch you're so fat."

then it's like "so who's considered fat/skinny?"
i admit that sometimes im sad enough to read those short articles in magazines/online on such and such suddenly being labelled as "too skinny" or "looking overweight". honestly some of these are just messed up >.< they have these pictures of celebrities and i swear, the people who they label as looking 'anorexic' aren't even skinny .. they look fucking normal. then the so-called 'overweight' people they show look rather healthy and just..like normal people do. it sucks that people go on about how because of the media and everything people are pressured to look slim, but when non-photoshopped people actually are that way, thet get bashed on. so those fucktards are like "celebrities and so and so should be good role models (add more bullshit) and look healthy and not anorexic and we should promote curviness and all that" and the next thing you know we have sections for those looking more plump and with the worst photos ever :S maybe i watch too much of Supersize vs. Superskinny ..but seriously that girl in the picture in this post isn't superskinny..just skinny-ish

i think i repeated myself a billion times just then. but i just woke up and im still lying in bed coz im too lazy to get out to do 5 chapters of methods before my exam tomorrow. fml.

BTW!!! BMI's lie. But go check yours: click here fatty. don't be lazy.

THINGS PEOPLE HATE ON YOU FOR

- the clothes you wear. or if you're wearing any at all
- your face
- fat or skinny
- whether you talk too little or too much
- your religion
- race
- hair colour(s)
- being overly confident or shy
- grammar
- level of intelligence
- where you live
- being rich or poor
.............................
so everything. humans disgust me.

A LITTLE SOMETHING SOMETHING ABOUT MY WORK.

honestly it'd be pretty rad working here. people actually look at you better than they do if you were just anyone on the street.

normal attention = disgust and ridicule and hate
special attention = shit loads more rad.

THINGS I'VE LEARNT THIS YEAR

- Tasmania is part of Australia
- Central Australia is not a state
- The Northern Territory is not a state
- It's spelt "pronunciation" not "pronounciation"
- Gerund
- New York isn't the capital of America
- French Revolution. most of it. some of it?
- Russian Revolution ^^
- smurfs wear phrygian hats.
- Ducks can fly
- i learnt what fetters are

FIRST.

it took me so long to figure out this thing that i completely forgot what i was meant to say.
contemplating whether or not i should just upload really old posts from other sites.

okay im going to move on to hypocrites.

i, admittedly, am one of them. but man do they piss me off.
for example when those people with dicks talk about how they prefer natural beauty and shit and talk about how appearance doesn't matter and they're not shallow and all that and girls should be more confident about how they look and why they always gotta be staring at themselves in the mirror all the time making sure they look pretty and blah blah blah how it drives them insane how girls spend so much time getting dolled up and whatever else.
idk where i was going with that but i just wanna know why people bullshit all the time about that when at the same time, they drool all over fake and slutty orange bitches wearing "clothes" that show off all their unsightly cellulite.

oh that takes me onto the next topic which is fat bitches in tight clothing. just coz i've seen people at school and on the streets and at school like this.
basically. if ur fat. don't leave the house.